Freedom from Social Media

I’m a sensitive person (am I allowed to say that?). I never watch the news because the stories will stick with me and haunt me. I struggle with nightmares. I have to be really careful about what I watch or read. My mama heart is sensitive.

Lately, I have been MAJORLY overdoing it with social media. I find myself constantly checking my Instagram. My phone is always buzzing with facebook notifications. Most of social media is nothingness – photos, silly statuses, etc. But over the past few days there have been articles, stories, and photos that have haunted me. Stories about human trafficking, articles about 6-month-olds being beaten to death, and photos of car accidents.

Maybe it’sĀ  because I have a little one (and spend nights nursing her with nothing but my thoughts) or I’m just sensitive, but I just can’t.

I deleted social media from my phone today *gasp* and this is what happened:

  • I sat on the patio with my kids.
  • I watched the sun set while rocking my daughter to sleep and watching my son play with his cars.
  • I made a delicious dinner.
  • I wrote in my journal.
  • I misplaced my phone – and didn’t notice for over an hour.

It is time for the real world – being present – and avoiding the pain that can come from social media and constantly being in the know.

Here’s to time with family, time to unwind, and time to unplug. ā¤

My hubby and I were talking this weekend about how we need to stop

My little nature lover - running through the stream shoes and all!

Taking a break from my spring cleaning / purging goals for this month and drinking some iced coffee in this gorgeous weather! Literally found a box today filled with random cords, electric bills from 3 moves ago, and an old science binder from high school! Needless to say, I have a BIG pile leaving our home today!! #minimalism #minimalistic #springcleaning #motherhood #momlifeisthebestlife #momlife #sahm #coffee #2under2 #slowliving #livesimply #liveauthentic
Big smiles after church. #motherhood #momlifeisthebestlife #momlife #2under2 #family #sundayfunday #slowliving #livesimply #candidchildhood #desert #arizona

Through the Eyes of a Child

Having kids has taught me a lot:

how to change a diaper

how to live on virtually no sleep

how to put others ahead of myself

how important coffee is for everyone’s well being

how you should never leave your house without a Binky. Ever.

Something that it has taught me recently with my son – seeing things through the eyes of a child. Kids are in awe of everything. Even the most mundane things. They are filled with excitement and joy over things like a school bus.

Isaac has recently become obsessed with all things transportation – cars, trucks, tractors, trains, you name it! However, to Isaac they are all a “bus”. Whenever we’re going anywhere, you can bet I hear my little guy back there saying “BUS” half a dozen times to describe any big vehicle. He’s obsessed. So now, I’m always looking for actual buses to point out to him. Another prime example = birds. Walking at the park has turned into a scavenger hunt for birds.

The wonderment of a child is something we should all try to emulate. It’s time to slow down and enjoy the little things (like big yellow buses and hummingbirds).

A Much-Needed PJ Day

It has been a fun and busy week. We had my family out visiting, which meant park trips, swimming, late nights, yummy food, and wonderful company. So today we are having a slow morning in our jammies. We’re playing buses, drinking coffee, and hardcore lounging with the washing machine as our soundtrack. Thank God it’s Friday! The hubby had a lot of late nights this week, so we are excited to see him this weekend for some serious family bonding.
If you need us, we’ll be soaking up the rest and relaxation today with no makeup, contacts, or cute clothes. Just comfort. Happy Friday, all!

These ladies are such a blessing. So thankful that they came to visit this week. Can't wait to see them all again in April (sans children! WHAT?!?). #momlife #motherhood #generations #newborn #toddler ##2under2 #candidchildhood #slowliving #sahm

Spent the morning with this little cutie sleeping on my chest. So thankful for local mama groups! #motherhood #momlife #newborn #candidchildhood #honestmotherhood #livesimply #slowliving #sahm

Playing dress up for our 2-month photo! #newborn #momlife #motherhood #babiesofinstagram #candidchildhood #letthembelittle #livesimply #sahm #2monthsold #slowliving #childhoodunplugged #babyfashion #babygirl #slowdown

 

Fill Your Cup

Motherhood is draining. It requires you to give, give, give of yourself at all hours of the day (even when little J needs me every hour on the hour at night!). That means there HAS to be time and activities that you do FOR you! For me, I just started running again. I take 15-20 minutes to go run a few times a week without kids. I get to listen to my iPod, burn some calories, and gain major endorphins. It is glorious (while I am actually running, I disagree with this sentiment šŸ˜‰ ). Another thing I do on a weekly basis (along with everyone else who has excellent taste!) is watch This is Us on Wednesday nights. I usually do this while cuddling with little Julia and it is time that I look forward to each week. šŸ™‚

This past few weeks were a doozy. Both kiddos were sick – landing Julia & I in the hospital for 24 hours! The hubby ALSO got sick after starting a new job (YAY promotion!). So today I am filling my cup. We went to church this morning (after church shopping for almost 2 years, I think we found the one) where I got to sing worship songs & dance with my two littles. After church, I went on my run. During naptime, I baked a Strawberry Buckle (thanks Farmhouse Rules!). My run will cancel out the amount of sugar I’m about to consume, right? šŸ˜‰

I’m feeling myself, full, and ready to conquer the week because I took some time to take care of me.

Cheers to #selfcareSunday!

I don't take very many selfies - especially ones without makeup while I'm still in jammies. BUT after 20 months on this earth, Isaac has FINALLY slept until 7am! This little guy is usually up between 5 & 6 and we've been trying to get him to sleep in for a long time! So happy to see some results (and sleep in a bit!). Julia, you're next!! #momlife #motherhood #honestmotherhood #candidchildhood #toddler #newborn #slowliving #letthembelittle #igmotherhood #coffee

Monday vibes.

On the Hard Days

To the mom who’s about to lose her mind,

You’re not alone.

Let’s imagine it’s a busy week for your husband – he’s worked the last 7 days straight and put in about 70 hours this week leaving you alone with a toddler and a newborn.

But you just stay home and play all day… Isn’t this what you wanted?Ā 
STOP.Ā 

I love my kiddos. Always will. But being around two kids under two for days on end with very little adult conversation (does the checker at the grocery store count?) can take its toll. And sometimes you will daydream about going to Starbucks to read a book that doesn’t talk about sleep schedules and drink a cup of coffee that doesn’t have to be reheated a dozen times. Or you’ll simply daydream of dropping a deuce without a toddler going through all of your bathroom cabinets.

It’s OK to have the “I love you, but you’re driving me crazy” days. The thing about childhood (and motherhood) is that it is fleeting:

You won’t always be dealing with blowouts and potty training.
You won’t always be given dirty looks in the mall when your kid is throwing a tantrum.
You won’t always have your hair in a bun and be covered in goodness knows what (has that spit up been there ALL day??).


One day your little one will be old enough to use the bathroom without your help, drive himself to school, and one day move out of your home leaving you with the cleanliness and quiet that you spent years dreaming about alongside a hole that will yearn to go back to the days of the threenager throwing blocks at his sister. Everything has a season, and there is beauty in that sentiment.

So, collect all the memories – from the good and bad days because you’ll miss them when they are gone. And on the really bad days , drive through a Starbucks put on a song that isn’t sung by the Mother Goose Club and remind yourself – this too shall pass.

Before I know it he's gonna be a teenager. Slow down, time! #motherhood #momlife #livesimply #liveauthentic #slowliving #letthembelittle #candidchildhood #childhoodunplugged #toddler #sahm

Julia Marie – A Birth Story

12.22.2016

Let’s just say that the day Julia decided to arrive was the furthest thing from ideal timing. I had been up all night with the stomach flu – very little sleep (if any) and absolutely NOTHING sustainable in my system. I was taking the day easy mostly sleeping & praying that the worst of it was over. During a nap, something felt off. All of the sudden, I was sitting in liquid. My water broke.

In a mad panic, I yelled for my hubby (who thank the LORD stayed home from work to care for me!). We rushed through our home throwing random things into a hospital bag, calling family*, and trying not to panic. My contractions started right away – thankfully they were mild, but regular. We got to triage and confirmed that I was, in fact, in labor. They sent in a doctor after confirming my status who told us that we would NOT be able to deliver at their hospital. Since our baby was considered premature (35 weeks, 4 days), they did not have room for her. She assured us they would call another hospital and transfer us over. Welp, hospital #2 didn’t want to take us either. Thankfully, hospital #3 set up a room for us.

I rode in an ambulance to the new hospital while Ethan followed behind in our car. My contractions stayed regular, but bearable. Apparently, when the nurses called for the ambulance they told the medics that I was in active labor and might deliver IN the ambulance. The medics were surprised (and confused) as to why I was talking through contractions and making jokes. We soon realized the nurses just wanted to expedite the process of getting an ambulance, so they fibbed a bit about how far along I was!

Once we got to the hospital, the medics wheeled me into the room that I was assigned. We were all confused (and a little terrified) that there was a screaming woman in there pushing out a child. Maybe you have the top bunk? chuckled on of the medics. Oops. Wrong room. Once we actually got to my room, they got me all checked in. I was at 5cm and fully effaced. The doctor was sure that the baby would be here today. They put me on pitocin to speed up my dilation and gave me the epidural. After about an hour, I started feeling some serious pressure down there despite having the epidural. It got so unbearable that I told Ethan to call in a nurse…NOW. Within minutes, our room was filled with nurses, doctors, and the NICU team (premie problems). It was time to push. I was in unbelievable pain despite having the epidural – apparently it decided to STOP working during the pushing part. Rude. Thankfully, Julia was ready for the world because I pushed for a total of five minutes and she was here weighing 6 pounds 8 ounces (HUGE for her gestational age) and healthy as could be. I was stoked that we got to do skin-to-skin immediately and she didn’t need to do any NICU time.

We were released from the hospital the evening of Christmas Eve, which was idyllic. We drove home in the rain with Christmas lights glittering all around us and our baby girl in the back seat. Our family woke up in our home as a family of FOUR on Christmas morning. BEST CHRISTMAS EVER.

*It should be mentioned that my mom and sister started driving out to us when we called them after my water broke. My mom really wanted to be there for Julia’s birth, and they live about 8 hours away. They sped the whole way and made it with 15 minutes to spare. My mom got to witness her first granddaughter enter the world, and my sister got a huge dose of holy crap labor looks horrifying I never want to do that birth control. šŸ˜‰

This little darling decided she wanted to come a whole month early! Julia Marie, welcome to the world! We're both doing well so far!

This little one's birth story is up on the blog! Polar opposite of her brother's birth experience!! Link in profile!

 

Becoming a Stay-at-Home-Mom

I have been working toward (and dreaming about) being a SAHM ever since my son was born in May 2015. It took awhile, but I finally got here! My husband and I decided to take a leap of faith and have me stay home with my son Isaac and my (soon-to-be) daughter Julia.

My last day of work was December 21 – a full month before my daughter was due. I had all of these glorious plans:
1. Set Up a Schedule for my 19-month-old.
2. Spend some time settling into our new place (boxes were scattered about everywhere).
3. Enjoy a nice & easy Christmas.
4. Start going to the local Mom’s Group events.

The list went on…

Do you see where I’m going with this? Obviously, NONE of this was accomplished because baby girl decided to join us on December 22. My water broke after a night of food poisoning less than 24 hours after my last day of work. (Birth Story coming SOON!)

Holy toldeo batman.

I was SO not prepared for THAT early of an arrival. We were so unprepared, but she had her own timing (and thankfully was extremely healthy & HUGE for a 35 weeker – 6lb 8 oz).

So instead of gradually joining the SAHM world, I feel like I was thrown into the deep end. I’m juggling a 19-month-old (one who is STRUGGLING with not being the sole center of attention) and a newborn. We’re almost two months in now, and so far so good. Only a few meltdowns (from the kiddos & this mama bird!), a couple of tears (mostly from the toddler), and lots of smiles.

I am excited about this journey, even though I know that there will be days that seem endless and impossible.

If you need me, I will be right here – babe in arms & coffee by my side. ā¤ (Birth Story will be up TOMORROW!)

Coffee and cuddles. All day everyday. #momlife #motherhood #newborn #babiesofinstagram #candidchildhood #2under2 #sahm #sahmlife #pregnancy #igmotherhood #slowliving #livesimply #letthembelittle